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Aloners (혼자 사는 사람들): An Interpretive Analysis

March 13, 2022 by Alex Blahout

Two nights ago, while soft, puffy flakes of snow fell from the dark grey sky outside, I had the great fortune of sitting inside the Bytowne Cinema to see the movie Aloners; or, in its original Korean, 혼자 사는 사람들. Made possible by both the International Film Festival of Ottawa (IFFO) and the Korean Cultural Centre Canada, I purchased a ticket at the first announcement, so eager to have somewhere to go other than my house. This was my first time attending a film festival in Ottawa, and actually my first time stepping foot in this particular local theatre, so needless to say I was delighted to attend.

Hong Sung-eun and I are the same age, which makes me wonder what I’ve done with my life.

A little context before we dive into my personal thoughts and feelings on the movie, because I don’t expect everyone to know all that much about Korean cinema! Aloners is the debut feature film of Hong Sung-eun, a woman who wrote, directed, and edited this masterpiece of social commentary at just thirty-two years old. She addresses the phenomenon of 홀로족 (“holojok”: a portmanteau of the Korean words for “alone” and “job”), denoting the increasing number of young adults who prefer to live on their own, by creating a character study that is both engaging and emotional. Also— although you won’t believe me once you see the movie —it is the first feature-length role for Gong Seung-yeon, the incredible actress who portrays the film’s main character Jina.

So, onto the good stuff, yes? (Just a heads up, this is more of an interpretive analysis, rather than your standard “this-happens-and-then-that-happens-and-it-was-good” kind of review.)

From the very start of the opening scene you get a sense of solitude and loneliness, like a weight on your chest, like something seeping through your skin and right into your bones. The color theory is muted and dull in everything from the characters’ clothes to the endless sea of high-rise buildings and the furniture therein. Only Jina’s television and phone, the two devices from which she can never seem to separate herself, contain bright and lively colors. Now, anyone who has participated in a single elementary school art class can probably decipher that a subdued color scheme is typically meant to symbolize sadness; however, in this particular context I interpreted it as representing the exact moment Jina’s life froze in time. What happens when you leave a picture in one place too long? The color fades away, leaving behind a ghostly imprint of what was once vibrant. In my opinion, the repetitive and stagnant feeling dominating our protagonist’s every waking minute is due to the fact that she has trapped herself in a snapshot, not moving forward or back, reliving the same dingy day over and over.

See how all the rich hues have been completely drained away, leaving the scene dusty and desaturated.

Jina is expertly written as the perfect embodiment of emotional detachment. Everything she does is meant to place as much distance between herself and the rest of the world as possible: headphones in her ears at all times, eyes fixated on her phone, and a strict refusal to allow anyone to penetrate the walls she’s put up. In fact, despite being a beautiful woman, Jina never wears makeup and always wears the same clothes, as if she’s trying to just fade away into the background. She ignores neighbors, coworkers, and family alike unless she feels forced to reply. This distance prevents any chance of connection or attachment.

It seems that Jina’s father, too, acts like everything is fine but shows his vulnerabilities when alone.

Perhaps the most telling, and most interesting, part of Jina’s character is that despite the great lengths she goes to in order to avoid actually feeling her feelings and her insistence to the contrary, it’s very obvious that some part of her still craves the company of others… but you only see these moments when she’s completely alone. In her small apartment, she keeps the TV on at all times— even when she’s asleep —just for the sound of someone talking; just so she won’t be crushed by the empty silence of her living space. I think this is an extremely relatable trait and accurately reflects one of the drawbacks of living alone. Of course, the much more powerful example would be the camera Jina keeps in her parents’ living room, initially set up as a gesture of kindness to keep a watchful eye over them as they aged but eventually becoming a window through which the young woman resentfully watches life go on without her.

It’s established early in the movie that the primary cause of Jina’s stoic expression and guarded demeanor is her mother having recently passed away. Again, anyone who has even glanced at a psychology textbook is familiar with the Stages of Grief, so I hardly need to explain that this character and her efforts to drift away from the real world while pretending everything is fine is going through classic Stage 1, where everything is numb. While this is an acceptable surface analysis, I think it goes deeper than grief.

Remember, Aloners was created with the idea of taking a closer look at those types of young adults who are upending the traditional home lifestyle in favor of being alone. Something else to remember is that while living on your own is terrifying in some respects, it’s equally liberating.

As someone who is also change-averse, I can say because change is unpredictable, it’s also scary.

Jina lives inside a very specific routine, and routine is safe. As we grow up, most of us will still subconsciously think of our parents as a safety net, and as any unfortunate soul who lost a parent too soon could tell you, once they’re gone, you’re in freefall. For Jina, the same bus with the same driver, the same food served by the same cooks, the same cigarettes smoked in the same spot, and the same videos played on the same phone, is what became her safety net. As her life gets shaken up with the introduction of a new coworker, the frustration of an obnoxious father, the death of a neighbor and subsequent arrival of a new one, it’s clear our protagonist feels like she’s losing her grip on the safety net and uses stone-faced reclusiveness to make herself inaccessible, masking her terror at the prospect of being plunged into the unpredictable darkness of change once again. So yes, this theory is related to grief; however, it reflects how complex emotions, or lack thereof, can be.

Going back to color theory for just a second, now that I’ve mentioned the introduction of a new coworker, I have to stop and compliment the filming surrounding the character of Sujin (and also I just have to compliment the actress who plays her; Jung Da-eun is so gorgeously cute I fell in love with her right away). While Jina’s life is dull and colorless right down to a plaid complexion and drab clothes, Sujin is saturated. She wears prim and pressed clothing, eye-catching pink lip tint… even her skin seems to have a healthy warm glow. This decision not only amplifies the contrast between Jina and Sujin’s personalities, but it also effectively demonstrates the positive effect of allowing yourself to access emotions.

Now, in the interest of keeping this analysis spoiler-free out of courtesy for the director’s fantastic work, and to uphold the maximum emotional impact— I cried, okay? —of what I’ll call the story’s climax, I won’t say too much more about the plot. There’s just one more thing I wanted to point out regarding the filmmaking.

The doorway is used to create a frame around Jina to symbolize being boxed in by this life.

It probably goes without saying, but the way a movie is shot can make or break the experience, because even a great plot can’t save scenes filmed at bad angles, or with poor framing, or just a style that’s at odds with what’s happening at the time. Fortunately for all audiences of Aloners, Hong Sung-eun is a master of framework and lighting. I strongly suspect not a single scene in this movie was filmed without intention; there were so many moments throughout my time in the theatre where I found myself admiring the deliberate use of doorways, walls, furniture, buildings, and streets to construct an exquisite frame around the characters. Typically Jina is shown in or surrounded by things that make up square and rectangular framing for the shot. My personal takeaway from this decision is that these frames, combined with the undecorated grey walls and concrete walkway of her apartment, are meant to evoke the sensation of being boxed in; of being imprisoned. Jina is a prisoner of her own mind, stuck behind the bars of denial, grief, anger, loneliness, and confusion. Yes, she’s safe behind the guarded walls of her cell, but there’s more to life.

Gong Seung-yeon’s acting range is outstanding, and she perfectly portray’s Jina’s character arc.

Ultimately (and don’t worry, I’m still not giving away the ending), I think there are many important lessons that can be taken away from this film and from Hong Sung-eun’s perspective on life, but I don’t think I should be the one to tell you what to learn. This is one of those stories where everyone will relate to it just a little bit differently, and so I can only say that you should watch it for yourself because it is worth every second of the runtime.

Thank you again to the Korean Cultural Centre Canada and the Embassy of the Republic of Korea for facilitating the event that allowed me the opportunity to experience the debut piece from a writer/director who’s sure to see a meteoric rise in the industry, not to mention the extraordinarily talented doe-eyed actress starring in it. An extra big thank you also goes out to IFFO for bringing both short and feature-length films from all around the world to Ottawa and for choosing to have a theatre screening when we’re all so sick of endlessly staring into our computer screens. And I’d be remiss to not mention the Bytowne Cinema, first of all for the beautiful historical building with an old-timey feel, and especially for staff who hosted a safe, vaccinated, socially-distanced event. I realize it’s a bit sappy to write these long thank you notes, but it’s important to me that organizers understand their hard work does pay off and it ends up making nerds like me really happy.

Coming up: I’ll be attending a Zoom Q&A with Hong Sung-eun on Friday March 18th and will hopefully get to find out if any of the above theories and interpretations are correct!

March 13, 2022 /Alex Blahout
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Stella Jang Kpop Live Concert Stream

October 03, 2021 by Alex Blahout

It’s obviously been a long time since anyone has been able to go to a concert, and I think all Kpop fans— both new and old —have been craving the experience of live music again. Lucky for us, we have the Korean Cultural Centre Canada, who organized a virtual concert to help everyone through this difficult time.

Now, I will admit that before this event was announced, I didn’t know of Stella Jang, but after seeing her perform live and interact with everyone in the stream, she’s definitely an artist I’ll be keeping in my sights.

You can read more detailed information about Stella’s personal life and the journey she’s taken since becoming a Kpop singer on websites like K-Indie Wiki, because I don’t want to take credit for anyone else’s research. What I will be talking about in this post is my personal concert experience with Stella Jang and what Kpop means to me as a fan of the genre.

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Even though the concert was at 8:00pm for me in Canada, it was only 9:00am for our guest of honor all the way in Korea, and yet in spite of this she arrived on screen looking beautiful. With high cheekbones, red lips, and a waterfall of wavy black hair, Stella Jang greeted us from her studio, guitar in her hands and a bevy of soundboards all around her. I was surprised that a single person would have so much of a setup— especially considering that Kpop idols who play instruments professionally are relatively rare —but this talented young woman managed to continually surprise me throughout the show with her skill.

First and foremost, we have to talk about Stella’s voice. She has one of those voices that just soothes your soul, but in an upbeat kind of way; the kind of voice that makes your ears tingle and, honestly, I found it hard not to smile during the whole concert.

As an aside, and I’ll admit this is not the best attitude to have, but in the past, I have skipped tracks by female Kpop artists because voices in the higher range often irritate my ears (I have sensitive hearing). After seeing Stella Jang live, I’m going to hold myself accountable to give more female singers a chance.

The second thing I noticed about this incredible musician is how well-written her lyrics are. At least, her English lyrics. I don’t speak Korean, but music like this transcends language; I don’t need to understand every word to know that a song is composed in a pleasing way, and I knew after reading the translations that Stella really is a poet, painting comforting pictures with words.

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Something I truly love about Kpop, especially about artists like Stella Jang, is that when they write their own words, the audience can feel the resonance from their own lives. I noticed that Stella’s music has a lot of range in terms of what she writes about, but many of them are feel-good numbers that would leave you cheered up.

Oh, and speaking of Stella’s English songs, I couldn’t let this blog post go by without mentioning that not only is she fluent in Korean and English, but also in French. On top of that, she can make basic conversation in Spanish, Chinese, and German. Isn’t that crazy?

Earlier I spoke about her studio setup, but I neglected to mention that Stella ran this entire concert herself, using her various sound boards to switch between using her guitar, backing tracks, and the most impressive feat of all: recording her own voice live in front of us, and then using it to create a gorgeous acapella song of making harmonies with herself.

I know that in all my blog posts I thank the Korean Cultural Centre Canada and the Embassy of the Republic of Korea for providing me with this opportunities, and I really don’t want it to start coming across as insincere, but at the same time, I feel it very important to appreciate and show gratitude for all the things I wouldn’t be able to do and talk about without these fantastic organizations.

And of course, a huge thank you to Stella Jang for getting up early in the morning to perform a wonderful, intimate show for us. If you ever read this, I appreciated how candid and grounded you were, and I hope young singers will look up to you as a role model, because you deserve it.

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Here’s hoping for another chance to see Stella again soon!

October 03, 2021 /Alex Blahout
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Music Brings Us Together: Thoughts And Feelings From A Traditional Korean Music Performance

September 28, 2021 by Alex Blahout

Words cannot begin to describe how excited I was through all of last week, waiting eagerly for September 26th to come. Why? Because for the first time since the beginning of the pandemic, the Embassy of the Republic of Korea and the Korean Cultural Centre Canada were able to host an in-person event*!

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Strings Quartet & Korean Traditional Music Performance. It could have been anything and I still would have been overjoyed just to have somewhere to go, but the prospect of being treated to such a special musical performance as the official welcome back to live functions was like the cherry on top of an already-delicious sundae.

And what a welcome back it was! Guests were greeted at the plaza by staff of the Korean Cultural Centre, who were handing out free packages of delicious Korean snacks, candy, and hand-warmers for when the sun went down. The packed seating area left standing room only and the audience buzzed with positive energy. I think everyone was grateful to be out and about at events again.

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Now, enough of my delighted rambling: let’s talk about the event and its extraordinarily talented performers.

As the sunset cast long shadows across the plaza full of seated audience members and curious lookers-on, Keung Ryong Chang— Ambassador of the Republic of Korea to Canada —walked to centre stage with a smile so big it warmed the chilly evening air. Evidently, I wasn’t the only person who sorely missed others in the community.

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“This is our first in-person event since the pandemic started,” The Ambassador’s voice was filled with happiness, which I personally found contagious, unable to stop myself from grinning ear-to-ear. "I'm grateful to be able to host tonight's performance."

Following His Excellency’s introduction, four sharply dressed young men took their places on the stage. These men made up the Strings Quartet; Byungchan Lee on violin, Heemin Choi on violin, Alejandro Valdepenãs on viola, and David Liam Roberts on cello.

What I can tell you that they played String Quartet No. 9 in C major, Op. 59, No. 3, by Ludwig van Beethoven. What I can’t tell you is how beautiful and stirring their musical performance was, at least not in words. So I’ve attached a small clip below.

Though it was truly a different kind of experience to see and hear this quartet live, capturing them on video does at least convey their immense talent and honed skills.

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Next up to perform were another four musicians who captured my attention so thoroughly with their gorgeous traditional Korean garments that my eyes didn’t wander from the stage for a moment throughout their entire set. I swear, any time I see someone in a hanbok, I think they look so beautiful that I want to wear one too.

And how else could this lovely group play traditional music than with traditional instruments? We had the honor of seeing Sosun Suh, who played the haegeum; ChoongHeon Baek, on the janggu; Taewook John Lee, who played mainly the daegeum; and Hyunyoung Roa Lee, on the gayageum.

I was actually so excited when the MC announced the traditional musicians would be playing a rendition of Arirang— a personal favorite ever since BTS covered it —that I think I startled some other guests around me with my enthusiastic clapping. You can watch the whole song below, because I was not about to miss capturing it.

Again, video isn’t the best way to experience this kind of event. If you’re ever given the opportunity to see these incredible musicians live, I highly recommend it.

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The other songs played by the traditional performers were Legend of Jeol-Young by BongChun Kang, and The First Step by Roa Lee.

To close out the night of many melodies, the Strings Quartet returned once more to grace us with two final songs. First was Langsamer Satz by Anton Webern, and last was, to my absolute glee, another variation of Arirang. It was the perfect way to end the event.

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As I’m sure was made incredibly obvious through every word in this blog post, being able to attend this special in-person musical performance made me so very happy. I am looking forward to experiencing even more this year as more and more live events become safe to host. Thank you so much to The Embassy of the Republic of Korea and The Korean Cultural Centre Canada, as always, for providing me the chance to attend.

*This event was hosted in compliance with national COVID-19 guidelines.

September 28, 2021 /Alex Blahout
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Memories of a Forgotten War - An Interview with Sgt. Gordon Gallant and His Experience of the Korean War

June 23, 2021 by Alex Blahout

This year, the Korean Cultural Centre is presenting a variety of online content to commemorate the 71st anniversary of the Korean War. This content serves to show our appreciation for the sacrifice and dedication provided by Korean War veterans. In addition to the online contents, a wreath-laying ceremony hosted by the Embassy of the Republic of Korea to Canada took place June 20. 

On June 16, 2021, I, as an honorary reporter of the KCC, had the pleasure— and honour —of interviewing Sgt. Gordon Gallant on behalf of the Embassy of the Republic of Korea to Canada and the Korean Cultural Centre Canada.

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Due to the circumstances of the world at this time, an in-person interview was impossible, but that didn’t stop Sgt. Gallant from wearing his striking uniform, adorned with glimmering medals, for our FaceTime interview.

A good-spirited, well-mannered gentleman who’s in touch with his emotions but isn’t above cracking a joke at his own expense, Gordon Gallant is the very model of a Canadian military man. Unfortunately, as a veteran of the Korean War— often referred to as “The Forgotten War” or “The Unknown War” —he has not seen the same level of respect and gratitude in his lifetime as veterans of the wars that preceded and followed Korea. 

I would like to change that. Let me tell you his story.

First, I wanted to know about the man that came before the soldier.

“You must have been quite young when you served in Korea - had you always planned to be a military man while growing up, or did the war prompt you to enlist, or was it something else?”

“It was something else. There were a number of circumstances - I joined the army at the age of sixteen, and the reason being that my father had passed away a year and half prior, and I was the eldest in the family of four, so therefore I had to do something to help keep the family together. On the spur of the moment, after the Korean War started, I went up to Halifax and enlisted. They were taking people, for what they called then, The Special Force, which was set up to have WWII veterans and other people go fight in Korea. So, there were two lines, I went in the Special Force line and they asked, ‘How old are you?’ and I sort of misspoke and said I was eighteen. And they said ‘Oh you’re too young’ because you had to be nineteen to go to Korea. So I went over to the other line which was the regular forces and enlisted. No one asked for any documentation or anything so I was free to go! So I went from there all the way to the west coast to do my basic training in BC.”

While telling me the story of his enlistment, Sgt. Gallant inadvertently answered the next question I had planned.

“What was your role in the military?”

“Well I was in the artillery. I trained on a 9.2 inch coastal gun because during WWII there was the threat of invasion by the Japanese along the coast, so I trained there on those guns and also on 3.7 inch anti-aircraft guns which were also used during WWII.”

Of course, I also found myself curious about how the Canadians got along with the people whose home they were helping to protect.

“Tell me about your own and the Canadians’ relationships with both South Korean civilians and soldiers. Are there any experiences or memories you’d like to share?”

“We had very little interaction really, we were always at the front line, right behind the 38th Parallel, supporting our Canadian Infantry Battalions. There was very little contact at that time. You may have seen the odd person walking along the Main Supply Route, but that was really it. We did have some contact with the Republic of Korea Armed Forces up at the front line, at the observation posts. Overall we had very little contact with them.”

Since I hadn’t previously realized Sgt. Gallant had served so close to the front lines, another question spontaneously came to mind.

“It must have been very intense for you to be all the way up at the 38th Parallel, basically staring into enemy territory. What was that like?”

“The artillery didn’t really ever get that close or cross the 38th Parallel, we were normally near - well we called them ‘9 Mile Snipers’ because the 25-pounder [gun] that was used in Korea, as well as WWII, could fire about 13,000 yards.”

No virtual interview can be complete without technical difficulties. Sgt. Gallant and I did lose connection for a few minutes, but luckily it was restored. We decided to move along to the next question after that.

“Is there any information about the Korean War that you feel Canadians maybe don’t know much about, or something that you feel is misunderstood?”

“As you know it started after WWII, and it wasn’t actually at that time called a war, it was called a ‘conflict’. I think why Canadians don’t know too much about it is the fact that Canada was getting back on its feet five years after the war, and no one really knew anything about South Korea. I mean, where is South Korea? I didn’t know at the time. So, I think that’s one of the reasons. And also, the government didn’t really own up to the fact that they had Canadians participating in the Korean War. And I think it wasn’t until recently, maybe 1982 or later, that recognition was actually given to the fact that there was a war.”

This prompted another question, since I was so shocked to hear the previous answer.

“So there was a period of time where veterans of the Korean War were almost… forgotten?”

“Yes. Very much so. I didn’t feel I had the same level of appreciation as other veterans. I can tell you though, one government that has given us a lot of recognition and appreciation is the Republic of Korea. They cannot do enough for us. It’s amazing what they do. At the start of this pandemic, their government sent over K-94 masks for the Korean veterans here in Canada and around the world. And just a couple months ago, they sent another supply of masks for the veterans. Actually, my wife and I returned to Korea I think it was in the late 90s, I was walking around waiting for our departure, and I had on my military attire which shows the Canadian badge on one side and the Commonwealth badge on the other, and a South Korean came up to me and said, ‘Hi Canadian! You’re number one!’ so that really put a smile on my face.”

As we were already talking about his return to Korea many years after the war, it was the perfect opportunity to ask my next question.

“How do you feel about the development of South Korea since the war? Do you feel any connection to how the country has grown?”

“I think it’s amazing how they’ve grown. When my wife and I went for a visit we landed in Seoul at the airport. And when I left that ‘airport’ it was a strip of land and anti-aircraft defense all around the airfield. Now today… I can’t explain it. It’s amazing to see how they’ve developed their country. When I was there, there was one bridge to cross the river. Now there’s something like 39 bridges there. My hats off to the Korean people and the government for the work they’ve done.”

This brought me to my last planned query of the interview.

“Can you think of a time you were particularly proud of the Canadians stationed in Korea?”

“Yeah. As you know, the artillery supports the infantry, and other units at the front. The regiment I was serving in, we had fired close to 250,000 rounds during the time frame we were there, from mid-June up until the armistice in ‘53. There was a night in October of ‘53, where the Second Battalion of the Royal Canadian Regiment was on a hill called 355, and the regiment started firing, attacking at last light and we fired continuously from last light until first light. And another thing is, that Regiment, because of the great fire support that we gave, the colors of the regiment were painted on the shield of one battery for the support we rendered to them during that attack. Also, during the war, some of the infantry battalions would come out and go into ‘reserve’ and another unit would take up their positions. Whereas the artillery never came out into reserve, we were always on call to provide artillery fire to whatever nation called for it.”

Sgt. Gallant was so kind and patient throughout the interview with me that I was hesitant to take up too much more of his time; however, this was also a man who deserved to speak his piece about such an important experience, so I left it up to him to tell me some stories he’d always wanted to share.

“Considering that a lot of these stories are forgotten, or looked over, is there any part of your story that you feel you haven’t shared?”

“There was one story that will always sort of… stay with me. The fact that my best friend and I were, how can I put this, they said ‘volunteers’ but we were ordered to go out on a digging party. And the reason for the digging party was we were to go up and dig what they call an ‘observation post’ on the front of a hill. We would go in at last light, and this went on for a couple of days, we’d go in at last light and come out at first light so the enemy wouldn’t know we were there. However, the enemy did know we were there. The observation post would be situated on the reverse slope so the opening would be on the front slope, so you could see the enemy lines. So there was one night in particular, after we had finished coming out at first light, my friend Murphy… he was killed coming back from that post. That is something I’ll never forget.”

Admittedly, I was incredibly moved as our interview concluded. The strength of character and bravery it took for a sixteen-year-old Gordon Gallant to fly across the world in order to provide for his family are rare qualities to possess, but to also put himself in a war zone to serve his country and help those in need… those are the traits of a hero. Certainly, he is a fine man who I hope I have the good fortune of speaking with again sometime.

It is my hope that with stories like this, we do not forget the atrocities of war and the people who served to protect the innocent, no matter when or where. In remembering, we not only honour those who work to make the world a better place, but also limit the chances of history repeating. 

There should be no “Forgotten War”.

Thank you to the Embassy of the Republic of Korea to Canada and the Korean Cultural Centre Canada for coordinating this interview and giving me the opportunity to participate in this special commemoration event.

June 23, 2021 /Alex Blahout
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Minhwa: Traditional Art Colored in a Whole New Way

May 20, 2021 by Alex Blahout

This week I had the honor of participating in a Minhwa coloring class hosted by the Korean Cultural Centre Canada. Since the event was virtual, there were participants from all over Canada; actually, attendance was maxed out! And after taking this class, I know why.

Minhwa, traditionally, is a painting technique that involves a lot of patience, time, and effort. By applying thin layers of paint, artists are able to achieve a beautiful gradient effect in their work, which is designed to bring good fortune and prevent harmful deeds. This style was used most frequently during the Joseon dynasty and is unique in its beauty; unfortunately, creating Minhwa in the traditional way is expensive and very time consuming.

In this class, however, we learned that stunning Minhwa can be created without the expense and effort. All you need is some paper and a box of coloring pencils.

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For this particular experience, we happened to be extremely fortunate and received a scroll of silk paper which was shipped all the way from Korea just for this class.

Our instructor was the incredibly talented Jungah Kim, the Creative Director of coloringme. She designs coloring books for Minhwa art and teaches these online classes. With a big smile, she taught us, patiently, how to carefully use coloring pencils to create the distinctive gradients and color combinations that Minhwa is known for. In my opinion, she spent the perfect amount of time on each segment: explaining the tradition of the art style, demonstrating how to do it, and answering our questions while we colored.

Since Minhwa features specific imagery to evoke specific effects— whether it’s to bring wealth or hope for love and unity —we got to color one such classic image. Mountains with a sun (or moon), otherwise known as 일월오봉도 (irworobongdo), is displayed to bring the balance of positive and negative, as well as bring thriving progeny.

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Even though it all sounds simple enough, and our drawing only used four colors total, there is definitely a certain amount of skill that goes into perfecting the technique. Filling in the spaces without leaving gaps and getting the colors to blend together properly is something I’ll have to spend more time learning. 

Lucky for me, I’m sure there will be another Minhwa coloring class hosted by the Korean Cultural Centre Canada sometime again in the future, and you can bet I’ll attend. It’s soothing, relaxing, and creative. Overall, 10/10 experience.

May 20, 2021 /Alex Blahout
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Burning: A Doomed Love Story Full Of Mystery

April 28, 2021 by Alex Blahout

Let me just say first and foremost: Burning is not a movie for the faint of heart, or mind (or bladder, running at nearly 2.5 hours long). This psychological thriller kept me on the edge of my couch the entire time, dangling the perfect amount of mystery in front of us while keeping the answers just out of arm’s reach.

Author’s note: This movie is definitely not suitable for all audiences. It contains nudity, sex scenes, drug use and graphic violence.

The protagonist, Lee Jong-su (played by Yoo Ah-in), is an emotionally unavailable but likable enough lead character who dreams of being a writer, though he remains traumatized by losing his mother as a child. When he meets a childhood acquaintance, Hae-mi (played by Jeon Jong-seo), who’s all grown up and beautiful— and perhaps a little bit manic pixie dream girl —it seems like she might be a bright spot in his dull, listless life. Unfortunately, she goes on a trip and comes back with a handsome older man named Ben (played by Steven Yeun) who lives a life of luxury. The three attempt to be friends despite the clear rivalry between Jong-su and Ben for Hae-mi’s affection. One night, while Hae-mi is passed out, Ben confesses his strange hobby: burning down abandoned greenhouses. In return, Jong-su confesses he loves Hae-mi, but shortly afterwards makes a nasty comment to her that results in her leaving and ignoring his calls. Soon enough it seems more like she’s disappeared altogether, so Jong-su goes searching for clues to her whereabouts, including following Ben around. After that…

…you’ll just have to watch the movie for yourself if you want to know more! I won’t be spoiling the climax or ending in this piece. Instead, I’m going to talk about some of the things I found fascinating about this intense, captivating film.

Burning is slow-paced and artistically shot, with a lot of long, quiet scenes that give the audience a chance to really soak it in. In contrast to that, there are many abrupt transitions from scene to scene that seem to mirror the way Jong-su lives his life; making random, heat-of-the-moment decisions.

There is almost no background music or noise used in the entire film, giving off a very creepy, unsettling sensation that gets under your skin more and more as the film goes on. The sparse music that is used also happens to be the perfect combination of atmospheric and absolutely terrifying.

I think something that’s important to remember when watching a film like Burning (or 2019’s Parasite, which is a movie I found to be somewhat similar to Burning in terms of style) is that the film is meant to be more of a character study, taking us through a portrait of these people’s lives rather than just packing the feature with action scenes. If you’re looking for that, this isn’t the movie for you.

Overall, I found Burning to be very enjoyable (although I’ll be sleeping with the lights on tonight) and would absolutely watch more movies from director Lee Chang-dong if given the opportunity. Thank you so much to the Korean Cultural Centre Canada for providing me with the chance to watch this film and hopefully more in the future!

April 28, 2021 /Alex Blahout
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A Review Of My First Traditional Korean Dance Class

April 25, 2021 by Alex Blahout

If you know me, you know I love learning new things. Especially things that are related to my interests. So when I saw the Korean Cultural Centre Canada was hosting online classes as part of their virtual K-Culture, I just knew I had to take part. How else am I going to beat the pandemic blues?

With an admittedly huge interest in Korean culture— and a personal background in dance —I surprisingly didn’t know anything about Korean traditional dance before signing up for this past Friday’s online class, so I went in eager and ready to expand my horizons.

The instructor Yeonji Hong, importantly, begins the session with warm-up exercises, which is something I admire since not all participants may think of doing it beforehand, and any physical activity requires your muscles to be limber. She also leads the class in some deep breathing exercises; doing this is a great way to connect your mind and body, and for something like dancing, that kind of connection is vital.

This week’s class was focused on learning the “Mask Dance”. From what I understood, this particular choreography is made up of six key movements that are then used throughout the dance. It’s really nice that the class is broken down into simple steps like this, because even a beginner with no experience can easily follow the key movements. After that it just takes practice to make the individual movements flow together and become a full dance!

And practice we did! The instructor went over the moves slowly and thoroughly, repeating the choreography enough times for everyone to understand without it getting boring. Everything went at the perfect pace and an hour is the ideal length for a class. One thing I will say about this type of dance: it has a surprisingly good cardio element to it! If you’re interested in traditional dance AND want to get your heart rate up (without jogging), I highly recommend trying this out. Exercise and fun all in one.

Since I also wanted to share my firsthand experience of being in the class, I jotted down the first set of moves we learned so you can try them out on your own. Although it’s a little tricky to describe in text, I’m going to attempt to take you through this beginning section of the dance.

1. Start by bouncing with your knees, keeping your upper body straight, for a count of eight

2. Lift your arms in a crescent shape and end with both arms straight out at your sides (this should take a count of two)

3. Bounce with your knees again holding your arms out for a count of eight

4. Point your arms down at your right foot, then quickly bring them up in a “woosh” motion, ending by bringing your arms in towards your chest (on a count of two)

Did you try the moves on your own? Are you curious about what else Korean traditional dance has to offer?

Well, you’ll just have to take the class for yourself (it’s really fun) and see for yourself what a great and energetic activity it is! Maybe you’ll find your new favorite hobby - I know I’ll be attending more of these classes. The sessions happen on Zoom every Friday from 7:00pm to 8:00pm EST.

Author’s note: it turns out that every week’s class will feature a different type of traditional dance, so you don’t have to worry about falling behind if you miss one or two classes, because there will always be something new to learn.

April 25, 2021 /Alex Blahout
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Creating 13 Make-Up Looks Based On BTS Album Art

July 16, 2020 by Alex Blahout

This idea was born from 2020 quarantine boredom. After the two months of isolation, I realized I hadn’t put on makeup for six weeks, and that needed to change (lest I lose my powers!). I chose BTS as my inspiration because… well, if you’ve been following this blog, you’ll know why, and if you’re new here, let’s just say they’re very important to me, and inspire me every day.

I set out to create a makeup look based on the album art aesthetic for each of BTS’ albums (minus their Japanese ones), and that’s what you’ll find below. I’m proud of actually completing a challenge I set for myself while fighting depression!

So here they are: my 13 different makeup looks. I hope you enjoy!


2 Cool 4 Skool

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Eyebrows:
Urban Decay Moondust palette in Lithium

Eyeshadow:
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in NYC (black), Sunlight (yellow), and Healing (gold)

Highlight:
NYX Vivid Brights Creme Color in Light Show

Contour:
VT x BTS Super Tempting Shade palette

Lips:
Essence Longlasting Lipstick in Black Gossip
NYX Liquid Crystal bodyliner in Crystal Gold


O! RUL8, 2?

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Eyebrows:
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in NYC

Eyeshadow:
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in Life
Red of the Day #ROTD liquid shadow in Shade 04

Highlight:
Maybelline Fit Me! pressed power in Ivory

Contour:
VT x BTS Super Tempting Shade palette

Lips:
Kat Von D Everlasting Liquid Lipstick in Outlaw

Writing:
NYX Colored Felt Tip liner in White


Skool Luv Affair

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Eyebrows:
VT x BTS Super Tempting Tender Classy eyeshadow palette in Fall in Brown

Eyeshadow:
Urban Decay Moondust palette in Lightyear (green)
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in Heart (pink)

Highlight:
Maybelline Fit Me! pressed power in Ivory

Contour:
VT x BTS Super Tempting Shade palette
Bobbi Brown Bronzing Duo in Brownie Bronzer

Lips:
Urbay Decay VICE liquid lipstick in Backtalk

Freckles:
NYX Colored Felt Tip liner in White and Chocolate Brown


Dark & Wild

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Eyebrows:
VT x BTS Super Tempting Tender Classy eyeshadow palette in Fall in Brown
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in NYC

Eyeshadow:
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in NYC (black) and Milk (white)

Highlight:
Maybelline Fit Me! pressed power in Ivory

Contour:
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in NYC
Bobbi Brown Bronzing Duo in Brownie Bronzer

Lips:
Smashbox Be Legendary lipstick in Mauve Wife

Blood effect:
Kat Von D Everlasting Liquid Lipstick in Outlaw


The Most Beautiful Moment In Life Pt. 1 & 2

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Eyebrows:
VT x BTS Super Tempting Tender Classy eyeshadow palette in Fall in Brown

Eyeshadow:
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in Rise Up (blue) and NYC (black)
NYX Love You So Mochi palette in Shade 02 (pink) and Shade 08 (coral)

Highlight:
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in Peace
NYX Love You So Mochi palette in Shade 02 (pink)

Contour:
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in Harmony (dark blue)
NYX Love You So Mochi palette in Shade 08 (coral)


Young Forever

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Eyebrows:
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in Pride

Eyeshadow:
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in Pride (orange), Sunlight (yellow), Nature (green), and Parade (teal)

Highlight:
Maybelline Fit Me! pressed power in Ivory

Contour:
VT x BTS Super Tempting Shade palette
Bobbi Brown Bronzing Duo in Brownie Bronzer

Lips:
Kat Von D Everlasting liquid lipstick in Echo
Lime Crime Opaque Creme lipstick in No She Didn’t


Wings

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Eyebrows:
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in NYC

Eyeshadow:
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in NYC
Fenty Flyliner liquid eyeliner in Cuz I’m Black

Foundation:
Kat Von D Lock It foundation in Light Neutral

Contour:
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in NYC

Lips:
Essence Longlasting Lipstick in Black Gossip


You Never Walk Alone

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Eyebrows:
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in Parade

Eyeshadow:
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in Art and Make Magic

Highlight:
NYX Love You So Mochi palette in Shade 02 (pink)

Contour:
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in Parade
VT x BTS Super Tempting Shade palette

Lips:
Kat Von D Painted Love lipstick in Backstage Bambi


Love Yourself: Her

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Eyebrows:
Urban Decay Moondust palette in Granite

Eyeshadow:
NYX Roll-On Shimmer eyeshadow in Platinum
NYX Colored Felt Tip liner in White

Highlight:
Maybelline Fit Me! pressed power in Ivory

Contour:
VT x BTS Super Tempting Shade palette
Bobbi Brown Bronzing Duo in Brownie Bronzer

Lips:
Lime Crime Opaque Creme lipstick in D’Lilac
NYX Roll-On Shimmer eyeshadow in Platinum


Love Yourself: Tear

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Eyebrows:
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in NYC

Eyeshadow:
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in NYC
Fenty Flyliner liquid eyeliner in Cuz I’m Black

Highlight:
Maybelline Fit Me! pressed power in Ivory

Contour:
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in NYC
Urban Decay Moondust palette in Granite

Lips:
Essence Longlasting Lipstick in Black Gossip


Love Yourself: Answer

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Eyebrows:
VT x BTS Super Tempting Tender Classy eyeshadow palette in Fall in Brown

Eyeshadow:
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in Sexuality (pink), Peace (blue), Truth (purple), and Milk (white)
NYX Roll-On Shimmer eyeshadow in Platinum

Foundation:
Kat Von D Lock It foundation in Light Neutral

Lips:
Lime Crime Opaque Creme lipstick in No She Didn’t


Map of the Soul: Persona

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Eyebrows:
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in Sexuality

Eyeshadow:
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in Heart
Fenty Flyliner liquid eyeliner in Cuz I’m Black

Highlight:
Maybelline Fit Me! pressed power in Ivory

Contour:
VT x BTS Super Tempting Shade palette
NYX Roll-On Shimmer eyeshadow in Mauve

Lips:
GOSH Light N Shine lip glaze in Shade 77


Map of the Soul: 7

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Eyebrows:
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in Harmony

Eyeshadow:
Morphe Pride Edition Artistry palette in Pride (orange), Sunlight (yellow), Peace (light blue), and Harmony (dark blue)

Highlight:
Maybelline Fit Me! pressed power in Ivory

Contour:
Bobbi Brown Bronzing Duo in Brownie Bronzer

Lips:
Kat Von D Everlasting liquid lipstick in Echo

July 16, 2020 /Alex Blahout
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10 Gender-Neutral Kpop Love Songs For Pride Month

June 16, 2020 by Alex Blahout

If you’re like me and still enjoy making playlists of love songs for your crush or partner, then you also probably get frustrated at the sheer number of songs that have some gendered reference to the listener. This means that some otherwise perfectly good and expressive songs have been omitted from playlists and that sucks, right?

To lend a helping hand to those of you making playlists— and in honor of it being about halfway through pride month —I’ve compiled a list of my top ten favorite gender-neutral kpop love songs!


Crown - Tomorrow x Together

Tell me please, I’m the one who completes your half
This moment of my name being called
Who you? Are you my salvation who found me deserted
Who you? Are your wings the same pain like mine
There’s a horn rising up on my head
But I love it
You become my crown


Star 1117 - Ateez

It's my greatest happiness to spend my day thinking of you
Become a star and come to me
Looking for star, looking for love
You are my own star
I'll always make you shine
Forever you’re my heart


Best of Me - BTS

It was raining
It was snowing
But all unhappiness stopped
You brought heaven to me
Don’t speak so easily
Because without you, there’s no me
You’re the best of me, the best of me


Touch - NCT 127

Feels like we’re in the same place
Cause when I look around, everything is you, it’s true
All the things that pass by
Become special because it’s you
Stay oh (stick around)
You and me, just like this
Baby touch me, I can feel you


Beautiful - Monsta X

Because of the thorns a beautiful rose can bloom
Dark red flowers, it means I love you
Even if I bleed everywhere, I wanna embrace you
Cause I think about you errday, I’m already addicted to you
When you touch me, my entire body reacts
I can only live if you’re here
Every day, every night I can feel you


Move - Taemin

Your moves captivate me
Your elegant gestures, secretive looks
For a moment, I erased everything
Only relying on my sight
With awe, oh oh, I’m only looking at you


Touchin’ - Kang Daniel

Colored with these emotions
When I hold out my hand
What I can touch
Is your warmth
Steal my heart right now
It’s spreading endlessly
I want you


9 and Three Quarters - Tomorrow x Together

Be my forever, call my name
Run away, run away, run away with me
At the end of the world forever together
Run away babe give me an answer
Tell me yes, a 'no' is no
Don't wanna stay, now we can go
If you and I are together, we run across the sky


Make It Right - BTS

It was all useless
Everything else other than you
Touch me like you did before
On the endless and eternal night
You gifted me with morning
Now can I hold that hand?
Oh oh
I can make it right


Baby Don’t Stop - NCT U

You’re the fire that revives
A flower that was definitely wilted
So I’m trusting my senses
Relying on your eyes that spread over me, come to me
Between our narrow space, this tension gets higher
I feel so right, so sweet that things get hazy


Hopefully some of these songs resonate with you and a great, musically diverse playlist will be born! It’s been my pleasure to curate this list for you; if you know of any other kpop songs with gender-neutral lyrics, please contact me on social media and I’ll add them to an edited list!

HAPPY PRIDE EVERYONE!

June 16, 2020 /Alex Blahout
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The King Of Mobile 한국어 Language Training: Sejong Korean Vocabulary App Review

May 26, 2020 by Alex Blahout

So you’ve decided you want to learn Korean— that’s awesome! —or maybe you’re already learning Korean, but you need some extra help studying. With all the language training apps out there, how are you supposed to choose one to suit your needs?

As someone who taught themselves Korean for over a year before stepping foot in a class, I’ve tried a lot of different programs. They all have their strengths, but I personally find this app to strike the best balance between writing, reading, listening, and speaking training while presenting the information in a fun and accessible way.

Enter: The King Sejong Institute’s Korean Vocabulary App.

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It’s so easy to use: the menus are straightforward and laid out clearly, plus a clean, crisp design makes navigating between sections a breeze. I would say anyone with English reading skills could make good use of this app to learn or brush up on Korean, so it’s good for all ages!

The touchscreen writing function offers a basic introduction to Hangul; while it may not indicate the stroke order for each character, some mobile language apps don’t even allow you to train your writing skills.

Possibly the most useful tool— something I loved right away —is the voice recorder. Record new words at the touch of a button and play it back to hear your own pronunciation, plus compare with a native Korean speaker. That’s both listening and speaking practice at once!

And if you want to remember specific or frequently-used words? Just click the star beside them during lessons and find them again in the “My Vocabulary” section. This is probably my favorite feature and also happens to be something other language training apps sorely lack.

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Measure your progress with a quiz at the end of every unit: much like lessons, the quizzes are short and quick, perfect for those with a busy schedule and less dedicated studying time.

Honestly, the app makes studying fun. Drilling vocabulary can seem like such a dull thing, but with mechanics like collectible cards for each new word you learn, or points earned for each lesson completed and used to “buy” cute in-app icons, it keeps things feeling more like a game than dry studying.

On the technical side, sound and background music are easily adjusted in the settings menu, as are learning reminders (push notifications are set to “off” by default) and profile customization.

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Finally, the bulletin board tab is great for new learners who want to ask questions, or current students who want a chance to practice and connect within the community. I think interacting with others is really the key to gaining fluency in a new language.

While no app can really replace the classroom experience, the Sejong Korean Vocabulary App is a great learning supplement. I’d say its greatest strength is how easy it is to pick up and put down without losing any progress in your lesson, making it ideal for on-the-go mobile education.

Overall, in my opinion, this Korean app wears the crown!


*App used on Android OS, Ver 2.0

May 26, 2020 /Alex Blahout
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Which One Nourishes Skin Better? Goodal vs A'Pieu Korean Sheet Mask Review

March 23, 2020 by Alex Blahout

COMPETITOR #1

Camellia Seed Oil Ampoule Mask by Goodal

When I first found this category of masks, I was a little confused about what “nourishing” meant. To be honest, now that I’ve tried these masks, I do have a better understanding but… it’s hard to put it into words. It’s more of a feeling, just like… a hug for your face.

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This mask smells earthy. It’s a very natural scent - you can really tell there isn’t any added perfume, which is a big plus for me (prone to headaches from strong odors). It came with one of those plastic sheets to make unfolding nice and easy, though I will caution you that this particular sheet mask is very saturated and the liquid is oily. Unfold with care!

In spite of the drips, the Camellia Seed Oil Ampule Mask was super easy to put on (some masks you have to fight) and fit well on my round face. I was pleasantly surprised when the sheet fit comfortably width-wise and didn’t gape or slip; however, the eye and mouth holes are on the narrow side.

I have to compliment Goodal for how well the mask held for 15 minutes without budging an inch. After removing it though, the liquid left over didn’t pat-absorb very quickly. I would say my skin still felt a bit moist for about 20-30 minutes afterwards.

My face felt nice and really glowed in the end, but it felt tacky for a long time.


COMPETITOR #2

Banana Milk Air Pocket Sheet Mask by A’Pieu

Okay, I’m sorry to go all girly here, but how cute is the packaging for this mask?! Honestly I barely looked at anything about what it actually does for the skin when I was buying it… I just thought the design was too cute to pass up. Can you tell I love banana milk?

First and foremost, holy cow does this mask smell like banana. It was powerful from the moment I opened the package and actually reminded me quite strongly of that liquid banana-flavored antibiotic that we used to get as kids. Watch out for dripping because it is very saturated; shockingly, it unfolds really easily even though there’s no plastic sheet inside.

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The Banana Milk Air Pocket Sheet went on my face easier than any other mask I’ve tried so far, and fits really well. It’s naturally stretchy (which I’ve noticed is actually not that common with sheet masks) so it would be suitable for any number of face sizes. The eye and mouth holes were also very nicely sized so there’s no risk of getting liquid in the wrong places.

It held pretty well for the 15 minutes I wore it, however, due to the stretch in the sheet there is some slack, so just pull it tight when applying. Admittedly, I was worried when I took it off because there was a lot of liquid left on my face that hadn’t absorbed… but I worried for nothing because with a little patting it absorbed really fast!

My face felt really nourished and just awesome after.


Maybe it’s obvious at this point which mask is my personal favorite… but in spite of my opinions, I just want to say that I don’t explicitly think any sheet masks are BAD (at least, I haven’t found any that are bad). They each just take different paths to reach similar outcomes. Now, as for my pick…

THE BANANA MILK AIR POCKET SHEET MASK BY A’PIEU!

Even though the scent is a little powerful for my taste, I think I like everything else better than I cared for the Goodal sheet mask. Ultimately I think I like cream-style masks better than ampoule-style masks, but maybe I just haven’t found the right ampoule sheet yet. I’m always open to suggestions!

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March 23, 2020 /Alex Blahout
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Which One Hydrates Skin Better? Mizon vs Mediheal Korean Sheet Mask Review

March 16, 2020 by Alex Blahout

COMPETITOR #1

N.M.F. Aquaring Ampoule Mask by Mediheal x Line Friends

I don’t know about you guys, but my skin really took a beating this winter from all the dry air, so I’m always looking for products that can give me some deep hydration. I’d never tried this particular Mediheal sheet mask before, so I took a leap of faith!

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It’s interesting that the Line Friends characters on the packaging are dressed as doctors, because the only way I could think to describe the smell of this mask is “sterile”. It’s just a very clean scent. Since the goal is hydration, I was pleased to see that the mask was very saturated, even if that meant it was kind of tricky to unfold. Also, the Line Friends masks have a cute little character design on the cheek! I’m such a sucker for cute designs.

Based on the smaller-than-average size of the pouch, I was worried the N.M.F. Aquaring Ampoule mask would be a bit small for my face… and I was right. Length-wise the fit was fine but it didn’t cover my whole face cheek-to-cheek. The eye and mouth holes are also slightly too narrow for my comfort.

There was virtually no slack in this mask so it held on very well for the full 15 minutes with no peeling or lifting. Unfortunately, it seemed like almost none of the liquid absorbed while I was wearing it: when I first removed the sheet, there was so much cream left on my face I couldn’t even pat without splashing it everywhere. I left it to air dry a bit and my skin did eventually absorb it, but stayed tacky for maybe about half an hour.

My face felt well-moisturized after with a shiny finish.


COMPETITOR #2

Joyful Time Rose Essence Mask by Mizon

I have to confess, I really love rose essence in skin care products. I’m not sure why exactly, it’s just something I’m always drawn to if I have the option. I’d never tried any Mizon sheet mask before, so when it came time to choose one from the many types, I had to go with rose!

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Wow, this mask smells AMAZING! Obviously it primarily has a rose scent, but really it reminded me of a cottage garden. Very relaxing and comforting. I would say it had the perfect amount of saturation and unfolded quite easily.

Just like its competitor, the Joyful Time Rose Essence Mask is made for a narrow face. The length is fine, but it didn’t reach to my hairline on the sides. The eye holes are also smaller than I’d prefer (maybe I’m just afraid of getting liquid in my eyes when I’m putting the mask on), but the mouth and nose holes were a comfortable size.

After wearing it for 15 minutes, the mask hadn’t slipped at all. There was very minimal peeling around the edges, but I think that was a result of drying and not a failing on the sheet’s part. The remaining liquid on my face absorbed quickly with patting and, once completely dry, wasn’t tacky or dewy at all.

My face felt replenished with hydration afterwards.


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For the first time in this series of mask reviews, I actually felt a little torn over which mask to pick. Both had their upsides and downsides, and both accomplished the end goal: leaving me with a more hydrated face. I suppose in this case I just picked which one I personally liked more.

THE JOYFUL TIME ROSE ESSENCE MASK BY MIZON!

Overall, I think I just liked everything about it better than the Mediheal sheet mask. They were both slightly too small, but the Mizon Rose mask had a more relaxing scent, absorbed better and more quickly, and left my face feeling nicer to the touch. If you couldn’t tell by my last review, I’m not really a fan of masks that leave a lot of liquid on the face.

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March 16, 2020 /Alex Blahout
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Which One Soothes Skin Better? Annie's Way vs VT Korean Sheet Mask Review

March 09, 2020 by Alex Blahout

COMPETITOR #1

Green Tea Bubble Tea Mask by Annie’s Way

Unlike last week’s review, I’d never tried either of these masks before I decided to compare them, so you can rest assured there’s no bias here! The first thing I have to say right away is that I love this mask’s packaging. It’s so cute!

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If you don’t like the smell of matcha DO NOT buy the Green Tea version of these Bubble Tea masks; as soon as I ripped the pouch it was like being punched in the face by matcha perfume (I’m a fan of the scent under normal circumstances, but this was a lot, even for me). On the plus side, it comes folded around a thin plastic sheet, so it unfolds super easily. Be careful when you pull the plastic away though: the mask is very saturated, and drip a lot.

The Annie’s Way Bubble Tea masks are quite wide, reaching right to the hairline, and the nose and mouth holes are larger than average. Oddly enough, the eye holes are smaller than average; please be careful not to get liquid in your eyes when applying the mask!

Other than some lifting around the mouth, this sheet mask held fairly well on my face for the 15 minutes I wore it. What remains on the face after removal absorbs quickly (actually faster than any other mask I’ve tried) with gentle patting, leaving my skin feeling cool afterwards. Something else interesting that I noted about the Green Tea Bubble Tea mask: unlike most other Korean sheet masks which leave skin with a dewy glow, this one leaves skin with a more matte finish. Not a bad thing, just different than the norm.

My face definitely felt soothed and looked less red than before.


COMPETITOR #2

Cica Care Centella Extract Mask by VT Cosmetics

Now, I’ll be upfront and say that I seriously love the VT x BTS line of makeup, and I really loved the peel-off mask I reviewed in the past, so I was really eager to try a regular VT product. I don’t think I’m biased but it does probably give me a higher expectation than other brands.

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The scent of this mask is extremely mild. I would describe it as clean; with no perfumed scent to compare it to, it’s hard to describe. The Cica Care mask comes with a plastic sheet to help with unfolding (much like its competitor), but before you unfold it, there’s something I cannot stress enough…

WEAR A TOWEL AROUND YOUR NECK.

Seriously. Or at least have one nearby. The sheet is so saturated you will need to wipe some off; I was not prepared ahead of time and had so much liquid running down my neck my friend had to run for tissues.

It’s pretty clear VT masks are for narrow faces, with narrow eye and mouth holes as well. I want to be clear and say that I don’t think this is a bad thing in general— of course some people have narrow faces —but that I happen to have a wider face so I’m always looking for comfortably wide sheet masks.

The Cica Care Centella sheet, unfortunately, didn’t hold very well for the 15 minutes I wore it. Maybe it was because of the extreme saturation, but honestly, it slipped down a lot. I spent almost the entire setting time readjusting it, especially around the chin and mouth. The remainder absorbs well with patting; however, I found my skin tacky to the touch for the next half hour or so.

My face did feel nice after everything finished drying.


THE WINNER

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If you’ve read everything up to this point, I think it’s pretty obvious which mask I preferred based on my experience. While I do think both masks did a fine job of making my skin feel nice to the touch, I intended to find out which mask soothed my puffy skin better, and honestly… that’s pretty obvious too.

THE GREEN TEA BUBBLE TEA MASK BY ANNIE’S WAY!

In spite of its powerful scent, my skin was noticeably soothed (less puffy) and less red, with a much shorter drying time. I also personally preferred the matte finish of the Bubble Tea mask, versus the sheen left behind from the Centella extract.

Maybe the VT sheet mask would be better applied in the bath where a mess wouldn’t be an issue, but even if the Cica Care had left my face equally soothed, it would still come in second because of that issue.

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March 09, 2020 /Alex Blahout
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Which One Brightens Skin Better? Mediheal vs Esfolio Korean Sheet Mask Review

March 02, 2020 by Alex Blahout

COMPETITOR #1

White Hydrating Black Mask Ex. by Mediheal x BTS

I probably went into this biased for the White Hydrating Black Mask because I already love the Mediheal x BTS sheet masks (a marketing win thanks to 4 boxes with all different photo cards); however, I did my best to remain objective for the sake of the review.

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The first thing I notice when I open a mask is the scent. This one smells potent as soon as you tear the package, a sweet odor, though I find it difficult to put my finger on exactly what it smells like. Watch out for drips when you take it out of the pouch — Mediheal masks tend to be very well-saturated and the White Hydrating Black Mask is no exception. Unfortunately, due to the excessive saturation, it’s slippery to handle and tricky to unfold without a bit of a struggle.

Sometimes I find sheet masks don’t fit well because I have a round face, but this one actually fits very comfortably width-wise, reaching all the way to where my ears start. The eye, nose, and mouth holes are all sized well too.

The Mediheal x BTS mask held strong for the entire 15 minutes of setting time without slipping, lifting, or peeling up at the edges. If you hadn’t guessed already (from my previous comments about the saturation) there’s a good amount of liquid left on the face after removal. I generally always pat my face post-mask to help with absorption anyway, but with the White Hydrating Black Mask, you really have no choice or your face would be moist for ages.

I noticed my skin felt softer to the touch and looked brighter right away.


COMPETITOR #2

Pearl Essence Mask Sheet by Esfolio

Esfolio is a new brand for me but they have a wide variety of sheet masks for different purposes and their packaging is super cute, so I was pretty much on board to try them from the get-go.

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So what does “pearl essence” smell like anyway? Honestly I’m still not sure, but this particular sheet mask has a very mild and clean scent, reminiscent of the complimentary soap at a nice hotel. It’s well-saturated but doesn’t drip everywhere when you take it out of the pouch, and unfolded very easily. One important thing to note: this mask goes on COLD! Most sheet masks will feel cool on your face, but the Pearl Essence was definitely cold. Very refreshing!

Sadly (for me at least), Esfolio clearly makes their masks for those with narrower faces. It didn’t cover my whole face width-wise. The eye and mouth holes are alright (though on the small side), but the nose hole isn’t very wide, and even though I don’t have a big nose, I noticed a lot of lifting near the eyes while the mask was setting.

The Pearl Essence mask sheet held strong for the full 15 minutes of setting time, firm at the edges and only lifting at the inner eyes as I mentioned above. After removal, the liquid absorbed into my skin very quickly with minimal patting, although I expect that if you didn’t feel like it, you could skip patting altogether. That’s how fast everything dried.

I noticed my skin felt softer to the touch right away but not much change in brightness.


THE WINNER

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Let me start by saying that I think both these masks are really nice and definitely both left me with nicer-feeling skin. That being said, the question I set out to answer was: which one brightens better? Personally, I think there’s a clear winner…

THE WHITE HYDRATING BLACK MASK EX. BY MEDIHEAL x BTS!

Yes, I acknowledged that I already liked these masks; and no, I didn’t only choose this one because I’m a fan of BTS. The honest truth is that after removing my the mask, my face was visibly, noticeably, less red and more bright. My skin kept the bright quality for the remainder of the day.

I did prefer the scent and saturation of the Esfolio Pearl Essence Mask, but its small size and lack of visible brightening were, ultimately, the deciding factors.

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March 02, 2020 /Alex Blahout
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My Seollal (설날) 2020: Celebrating the Lunar New Year

February 24, 2020 by Alex Blahout

Before I opened my eyes to the world of Korean culture and took a deep dive into appreciating it, I’d always associated the Lunar New Year with China. Really, it’s no surprise: in North America, that general time of year is colloquially referred-to as “Chinese New Year”. Now, I should say that if you know the basic history of how Korean culture grew from many ancient Chinese traditions, that Americanized misnomer makes slightly more sense; regardless, Seollal (설날) is definitely its own beautiful celebration.

I’m not going to go into all the differences between the two in this post, however, I do want to share why I hosted my own Lunar New Year celebration this January, some of the things I learned about it through my research, and what parts I included in my more modern take on the tradition.


Why celebrate 설날?

Seollal is a family-oriented holiday, traditionally focused on ancestor worship and paying respects to the elders of the family. Personally, I believe that family is not limited to the people you simply share blood with; family can also be the people with whom you choose to surround yourself, who bring love, support and positive energy into your life. It’s for that reason I hosted my Lunar New Year party for my closest friends; the family I chose and wish to honor for being a part of my life.

I bought this pretty floral tea set specifically for the Seollal party, since I like to serve green or white tea after dinner.

What did we eat?

In Korea there is a historic ritual, performed as a part of the meal, called Charye (차례). It is a memorial service to one’s ancestors. As there is a deep cultural significance to it, and because I am not Korean, we left this ritual out of our celebration. In its place, we each silently gave thanks before eating our dinner.

Even without the Charye, food is still a very important part of Seollal. There are a number of traditional dishes eaten during Korean holidays; however, since one of my friends is ovo-vegetarian and another is celiac, I made the whole meal meat and gluten-free. Lucky for me, a lot of Asian-based cuisine is actually wonderful for accommodating these types of eating restrictions, so we were all able to eat a plentiful dinner! So what did we eat anyway?

Korean sweet potatoes, chopped into small pieces to cook evenly!

Those potatoes after being fried in an oil and brown sugar sauce.

On the left we have japchae: sweet potato glass noodles, carrots, onion and shiitake, cooked with gluten-free soy sauce. On the right are Korean-style braised eggs (hard-boiled and soaked in a soy and rice wine sauce), which should have come out darker but it was my first time!

Sweet and tangy cabbage salad with oil and rice vinegar dressing

Korean fish bread made with gluten-free flour and filled with Nutella

This is ddeokguk (떡국), a soup (국) made with sliced rice cakes (떡), which has a special significance during Seollal even though it is eaten regularly in Korea throughout the rest of the year. It’s said that eating a bowl of ddeokguk is what causes a person to age one year because it marks their Lunar Calendar birthday. In my reading I learned that Korean children will eat more than one bowl to try to grow up faster, how cute is that?

Traditionally you would make ddeokguk with beef, anchovy and kelp stock made from scratch, but since that isn’t vegetarian, I substituted pre-made vegetable stock. It was still delicious!

Note: if you aren’t used to rice cakes, you might find the texture weird in your mouth.

 

What games did we play?

Yut Nori (윷놀이) is an old, old, incredibly old game usually played around the holidays in Korea (if you watch any idol variety shows, they often play it in Seollal and Chuseok-themed episodes). It uses marked sticks to move around the board instead of dice and the goal is to get at least two of your game pieces back to the start.

I designed this custom BTS yut board because my friends and I are huge fans and I thought it would be more fun to play as our favorite members! Also, since this isn’t exactly a game you can go pick up in a store (at least not in Canada), I needed to make my own game pieces anyway. Why not have fun with it?

Next year I hope to include a game called Go-Stop (고스톱); another traditional game which uses a special deck of cards and is also played at holiday gatherings. Maybe I’ll make a custom version of that too!


Like most holidays, Seollal is really a time to be with your loved ones and enjoy each other’s company with some great food. I believe that I achieved everything I wanted for this Lunar New Year celebration and next year I hope to do something even bigger and better. I’m truly grateful to find such a beautiful culture that resonates so strongly with me, that has come to mean so much to me, and that I can continue to learn about and appreciate every day. Here’s to 2020!

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CREATING: How I Researched, Drafted & Made A Hanbok

January 27, 2020 by Alex Blahout

From the very first moment I laid eyes on a hanbok (한복), I knew I had to own one. My dream is to one day own a really nice authentic hanbok purchased in Korea, but until that day comes, I decided to take the journey of making one myself. Join me, won’t you?

THE RESEARCH

As a total newbie to historical costuming, I started things off with a few quick Google searches, since I wasn’t sure where to go for the best resources (I assume many excellent resources are written in Korean, but unfortunately, my own Korean isn’t that good yet).

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I did luckily manage to find some very helpful blog posts and websites, from which I learned the correct names for all the pieces of the hanbok, the traditional colors used, the different styles based on status and age, the types of decoration, and many more fascinating historical facts. Admittedly, I’m a huge nerd who loves to fully understand the history and significance of objects from other cultures, so I probably spent way longer reading than was really necessary… no regrets though.

Anyway, I won’t bore you with everything I read (you can click here to read what I found to be the most informative full explanation) but I will break down a few quick facts to help you gain as much appreciation and respect for this amazing garment as I have.

Traditional 한복 Composition

Women’s hanbok primarily consist of two pieces: the jeogori (저고리)— a jacket-like top —and the chima (치마). There’s also the collar trim, git (깃), and its friend dongjeong (동정), which is the white piece of trim on top of the git. The last key pieces are the cuffs or ggeutdong (끝동) and the tie that closes the jeogori, the goreum (고름).

There are more components when it comes to accessories, like shoes and headwear; unfortunately, I ran out of time before the Lunar New Year before I could make them. It’s likely I’ll take a shot at constructing all the accessories soon, so keep an eye out for a follow-up post!

Now, back to the subject at hand. In the past, a specific set of colors were used for hanbok, and played a significant role in their creation, as the color of fabric denoted important things like social status.

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Luckily for me, color schemes aren’t so restrictive these days; pretty much any bright or rich color is welcome (although I will say, if you’re making a historically accurate hanbok, then you may want to read up on which colors go with the status you wish to display). Traditionally, each fabric chosen would be one solid color and decorated with embroidery.

In this respect, the fabric I chose for my jeogori definitely strayed from what would be considered normal… the truth is, I saw this shimmery floral fabric, and it was so beautiful, and on sale, and I just… had to use it. Besides I’m no good at embroidery. Yet.

The style for a man’s hanbok is a little different. That’ll probably be my next historical costume project though, so I won’t go into it here.

THE DRAFT

I’ll be the first to admit I’ve used the word “drafting” a little loosely.

Since I’m not quite advanced enough to create a sewing pattern from scratch, I’ve taken to modifying and, to use a term I love, “Frankensteining” existing patterns. For the hanbok I started with two patterns: McCall’s M7081 for the base of the jeogori, and Simplicity 1095 for the base of the chima.

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Many moons ago, I picked up a handy trick from a fellow cosplayer: instead of cutting out sewing patterns from the tissue paper that it’s originally printed on, trace the pattern onto a clear shower curtain liner (I buy mine at the dollar store). This way you don’t destroy the pattern if you want different sizes, you can lend the pattern to other people, and— crucially —it’s very easy to make modifications because you can draw them right onto the plastic.

The chima was straightforward enough, since it’s more or less a gathered skirt that’s tied at the uppermost part of the waist. I only needed to modify the closure from Simplicity 1095, changing it from a zipper to a tie, while everything else stayed the same. For the second tier I simply halved the length of the pattern for the full skirt.

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The jeogori is actually made up of two patterns. I mentioned McCall’s M7081, from which the front and back pieces are taken, and the sleeves are taken from McCall’s M6044. I used a man’s sleeve to ensure the extra width and length of the final product on me.

Finally, whenever I modify a pattern, I always make a mock-up (or muslin) with scrap fabric before cutting into the good fabric. This way you don’t risk wasting expensive fabric, or ruining fabric you may not be able to replace. Personally, I always try to use the most hideous material possible for the mock-up because it ends up looking hilariously bad, and why not have a little silly fun while you’re sewing?


THE SEWING

Since the hanbok is such a gorgeous garment, I wanted to pay respect to it by sewing it to look as beautiful as possible, with clean stitching and straight hems.

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If I were making a hanbok to wear outside, I might have put a lining in the jeogori, but since I didn’t want to overheat, I opted to do French seams throughout the entire garment. With this technique all the raw edges are hidden, which not only looks a lot better, but also prevents the fabric from fraying along the seam lines. This doubles the work— since you basically sew every seam twice —but it’s worth the payoff. I also rolled the hems twice to reduce the chance of them coming undone.

For the chima, I gathered and basted the pleats in place, then attached it to the extra wide bias ribbon which I used for the waistband. I hand-sewed ties to the waistband so the stitching would only be visible on the inside.

I used the same ribbon for the git, ggeutdong, and goreum. Throughout my research I noticed these pieces don’t all necessarily have to be the same color; in fact, it’s a very striking look for a hanbok to have multiple complimentary colors instead of completely matching. In this case, I was working on a tight budget, so that made the decision of how much fabric to buy for me.

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The dongjeong is thinner on my hanbok than the photos that turned up in my reading. Admittedly, I sacrificed the accuracy of this component to get a cleaner look by using purchased double-fold bias tape instead of trying to make my own.

In order to achieve the fullness of the chima you need to wear a hoop skirt. I used one I already owned, though I took the bottom two hoops out to make sure the chima fell in the correct shape (it was stretched too wide and the pleating didn’t look right). If your hoop skirt moves a lot (like mine), I would recommend wearing something underneath so it doesn’t slip down.

All put together, this hanbok made me feel like a pretty Korean princess!

IN CONCLUSION

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Making this hanbok was a very special experience for me. It was my first sewing project of 2020 (after taking 2019 off from costuming), so that definitely added to the satisfaction, but honestly, it was more about how this experience allowed me to take my love for a unique and fascinating culture and turn it into something concrete.

Going forward, I will continue to seek opportunities that will allow me to appreciate and respect the beautiful country and culture of Korea. And speaking of which…

There’s another blog post coming soon, because I made this hanbok for a special occasion! Stay tuned for My Seollal (설날) 2020 — Celebrating the Lunar New Year!

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3 (Personal) Theories That Link BTS' 2019 MMA Showcase To The HYYH Storyline

December 03, 2019 by Alex Blahout

Last year, at the 2018 Melon Music Awards, BTS secretly revealed the name of their upcoming album Persona during the intro performance to Fake Love. At this point I think it’s safe to say they rarely release anything that doesn’t somehow tie into a bigger picture.

This past Saturday, at the 2019 Melon Music Awards, BTS’ showcase performance not only nodded toward the name of their next album— which, while unconfirmed at this point, is almost certainly Shadow —but they also included several hints during their VCRs that tie into the HYYH-era storyline. Like the rest of the BTS Universe story (which was only slightly clarified by the webtoon) the clues are mostly inscrutable, so making sense of them is hit or miss; however, I thought I would share what I noticed anyway.

Also included in this post are my personal theories, which may be lame. You have been warned.


Theory #1: The VCRs Represent An Alternate Reality?

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The first VCR shows all the boys sleeping on some couches and chairs, which is immediately reminiscent of the ending shot of the I Need U music video. Since that era is where the storyline began, even though the boys aren’t positioned in exactly the same way, the setup probably isn’t a coincidence.

I also noticed that the furniture setup is quite similar to the For You music video. Although many people don’t think about the Japanese songs, For You was released around the same time as I Need U, therefore I refuse to discount the possibility of it being a part of the story.

Finally, the curtains in the back of the room. We’ve seen those lacy curtains in Seokjin’s Wings short film, the Love Yourself highlight reel, Euphoria, Fake Love… they’re definitely a link to the storyline.

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Looking closely at their clothing choices in the MMA VCRs, I noticed how there are some striking similarities to the I Need U music video… and since nothing from BTS is ever a coincidence, there must be a reason why some of them are dressed the same.

Yunki is wearing the same plaid shirt that appears in I Need U (hanging on the wall of his apartment).

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Jungkook’s outfit— notably the black jacket over a grey shirt —matches what he wore back then as well.

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Taehyung probably has the closest replica of his I Need U outfit; wearing a black leather jacket in the same style, over a hoodie.

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It’s my personal theory that every time Seokjin travels back in time to start over and save all his friends, a new alternate reality is created (which would explain some of the music videos that don’t seem to line up perfectly with the HYYH story). I suspect the 2019 MMA VCR links up to one of these realities.

I’ve yet to figure out the exact significance of the lighter as it pertains to the BTS Universe story; however, it’s a piece of imagery that appears consistently throughout their music videos and teasers. Usually we see Yunki with the lighter— his symbol throughout the story seems to be fire —but in the opening VCR from this year’s Melon Music Awards, Namjun is holding, and playing with, the lighter.

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Theory #2: The Upcoming Album Will Be Connected To The Story?

As I mentioned at the beginning of this post, I’m positive the next BTS album will be Shadow because of the obvious shadow imagery in the MMA 2019 VCRs. When the boys’ shadows fill in to reveal them, it links up with their respective themes throughout the story, as seen in the Love Yourself Highlight Reel, some of the Wings short films, the HYYH Prologue, and the I Need U, Spring Day, Euphoria and Fake Love music videos.

Jungkook’s shadow fills in with smoke. I think this is probably an allusion to him saving Yunki from the fire in Euphoria, but in general, fire and smoke are actually pretty common imagery for Jungkook.

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Namjun’s shadow fills in with leafs. His is the most confusing to me personally (not that any of them are glaringly clear), but I was able to find some imagery that was consistent with leafs and forests.

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Jimin’s shadow fills in with water. This one is probably the clearest, since all of Jimin’s imagery throughout the story has to do with water; from the bathtub in I Need U to the rain in the Love Yourself highlight reel.

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Hoseok’s shadow fills in with a rainbow scene. It’s a little hard to make out exactly what the scene is, but I’m pretty sure it’s the carousel, which is frequently part of the BTS Universe Hoseok’s storyline.

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Taehyung’s shadow fills in with spray paint. If you look closely, inside his silhouette you can see the same graffiti from the Wings short film, and on top of that, spray paint is a common theme in his story.

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Yunki’s shadow fills in with flames. Most of Yunki’s HYYH story revolves around fire and burning imagery, so there’s no secret this is connected to the BTS Universe.

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Seokjin’s shadow fills in with what looks like a video glitching, and then very clearly, a train. Seokjin has the video camera through HYYH, and the train appears in the Love Yourself highlight reel.

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Theory #3: The Dance Solos Symbolize Each Character?

Now, here’s the part where I get a little deeper into the crazy side of BTS Universe theories, possibly trying to connect things that aren’t there. Why am I sharing them if I know they sound kinda crazy? Because that’s half the fun of coming up with fan theories, isn’t it?

So bear with me while I analyze how each of BTS’ solo dance performances may have also been nods to their respective storylines.

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First, during Taehyung’s dance in the archway, I noticed there are petals blowing all around him. These petals show up all throughout the HYYH story and seem to be a symbol of the timeline changing, or maybe an effect of Seokjin traveling back in time. The archway Taehyung dances in is also very similar to the aesthetic of the statue room in the Blood Sweat and Tears music video, and the way he appears to be dancing on a ledge made me think of when he jumps off the balcony. Since one of my own theories is that all the characters are dead in Blood Sweat and Tears— until Seokjin seals his Faustian deal to save them with a kiss —and the devil takes the form of Taehyung, the fact that the landscape seems to be burning around him in his 2019 MMA performance might lead credence to my theory.

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Second, Jin shows up riding a horse. This is my most straw-grasping part of these theories, because I don’t know if the horse really represents anything, but I think there’s some symbolism there. Seokjin’s commanding performance could represent how he drives the story forward because he’s the one in charge of saving the rest of the group. If we presume it’s a Trojan horse (fitting with Dionysus’ ancient Greek aesthetic), it could symbolize how Jin keeps the secret of his power to go back in time, and the knowledge that the members might/will die, while pretending nothing is wrong.

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Third, Jimin’s beautiful contemporary scarf dance. He’s dressed all in white, which makes me think of the Love Yourself Highlight reel, and the Run and Euphoria music videos, when Jimin is in the hospital and wears those sterile white hospital pajamas. His dance is done in an interpretive style, very light and flowing, with a dreamlike quality; not unlike the dreamy, drug-induced feel of his Wings short film Lie. I think his solo performance could represent an expression of the grief he endures during the Love Yourself highlight reel, or his coping with loneliness in the hospital (like how he runs around the empty cafeteria in Euphoria), or maybe even an attempt to drown himself as is suggested in I Need U.

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Fourth, Yunki inside the burning square. As I said before, Yunki probably has the most straightforward imagery in the entire BTS Universe. Pretty much everything is fire with him. I would explain his being inside a cube at the Melon Music Awards as a symbol of him being trapped in the burning apartment.

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Fifth, Jungkook’s dance in the water. I’ve already pointed out how much water imagery there is in the HYYH story, so I won’t bore you again. What I will say is that I noticed a lot of the gestures felt similar to other significant moments throughout BTS music videos; for example, when he falls down onto his back, he has his arms spread out and his head to the side just like the end of the intro to Euphoria. The way he reaches up, and then grabs his own hand, at the beginning of the dance looks very similar to the way he and Seokjin end the Fake Love choreography.

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Sixth, Hoseok’s crazy Skrillex-sounding solo performance, which probably actually ties with Jin for the biggest stretch I had to make. Hoseok’s performance was very dark, with beams of neon-colored light shooting out around him. That reminded me a lot of his Wings short Film Mama as well as Boy Meets Evil, where everything goes dark and there’s splatters of neon-colored paint everywhere. Plus, in the storyline Hoseok is a narcoleptic, and I thought his performance seemed a lot like a dream… or a nightmare.

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Seventh and finally, Namjun’s intro. I don’t say this theory is reaching because I honestly don’t have one for him. He had a short intro (probably because he performed Persona) and there wasn’t very much to it, but he still looked like a badass.


So those are the hints of the BTS HYYH story I noticed at this past Saturday’s performance at the 2019 Melon Music Awards. Thank you for bearing with me through all my silly fan theories; I hope you at least got a laugh or two, and hey, maybe you’ll actually look forward to more of my theories in the future!

 
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Jungkook Goes To Disney World: A Funko Pop! Adventure

November 19, 2019 by Alex Blahout

Jungkook enjoying the amenities at Disney’s Polynesian Village Resort


Disney’s Hollywood Studios

Jungkook explores the world of Star Wars at the new Galaxy’s Edge park in Hollywood Studios


Disney’s Magic Kingdom

Jungkook is set for a day of rides and meeting characters

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Disney’s Epcot

Jungkook visits Epcot during the International Food & Wine Festival

Canada pavilion

United Kingdom pavilion

France pavilion

Morocco pavilion

Morocco pavilion

Japan pavilion

Italy pavilion

Germany pavilion

Mexico pavilion

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November 19, 2019 /Alex Blahout
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16 BTS Songs For When You Need A Self-Esteem Boost

November 05, 2019 by Alex Blahout

I should state for the record that this list of songs has no particular order or ranking. I can’t even choose my favorite BTS song— I can barely pick a top 10 —so really I just put these songs down in the order they occurred to me.


Mikrokosmos 

(Map of the Soul: Persona)

“Everyone’s light is so precious; in the dark night (don’t be lonely)

Like the stars (we shine)

Don’t disappear, because you’re a great existence”

“사람들의 불빛들 모두 소중한 하나; 어두운 밤 (외로워 마)

별처럼 다 (우린 빛나)

사라지지 마, 큰 존재니까”


21st Century Girls

(Wings)

“If anyone keeps insulting you, tell em you’re my lady, go tell them (tell them)

Whatever other people say, whatever this world tells you

You’re the best to me just the way you are”

“혹시 누가 너를 자꾸 욕해, tell em you’re my lady 가서 전해 (전해),

딴 놈들이 뭐라건 이 세상이 뭐라건

넌 내게 최고 너 그대로”


No More Dream

(2 Cool 4 Skool)

“What is the you that you’ve dreamed of? Who do you see in the mirror?

I gotta say go on your path, even if you live for a day

Do something; put away your weakness”

“니가 꿈꿔온 니 모습이 뭐여? 지금 니 거울 속엔 누가 보여?

I gotta say 너의 길을 가라고,단 하루를 살아도

뭐라도 하라고; 나약함은 담아둬”


Magic Shop

(Love Yourself: Tear)

“Days when you hate that you’re you, days when you wanna disappear

Let’s make a door in your heart

If you open that door and go inside, this place will be waiting for you”

“내가 나인 게 싫은 날, 영영 사라지고 싶은 날

문을 하나 만들자 너의 맘 속에다

그 문을 열고 들어가면, 이 곳이 기다릴 거야”


For You

(Youth)

“Even if we are far away we are looking at the same sky

Even if something happens

If you are here I am not afraid anymore”

“例え遠くにいても 2人同じ空見てるよ

例え何があっても

君がいれば何も怖くはないよもう”


I’m Fine

(Love Yourself: Answer)

“All of the sadness and scars became an old memory now

So let’s smile and let go, we so fine

I'm so fine, you so fine, our future will only have happiness

So put away your fear, enjoy it, you worked hard, we so fine”

“슬픔과 상처는 모두 다 이미 지나간 추억이 됐으니

웃으며 보내주자고 we so fine

I’m so fine, you so fine, 우리들 미래는 기쁨만

가득할 테니 걱정은 접어둔 채, 이젠 즐겨 수고했어 we so fine”


Baepsae

(The Most Beautiful Moment In Life Pt. 2)

“It’s my fault? You’re joking, right? This is fair? Oh, are you crazy?

This is right? You must be kiddin’ me!

You must be kiddin’ me, you, you must be kiddin’ me!”

“내 탓이라니 너 농담이지? 공평하다니 oh are you crazy

이게 정의라니 you mu be kiddin’ me!

You mu be kiddin’ me, you you mu be kiddin’ me!”


N.O.

(O!RUL82?)

“Adults tell me that hardships are only momentary, to endure a little more, to do it later

Everybody say NO!

It can’t be any later, don’t be trapped in someone else’s dream”

“어른들은 내게 말하지 힘든 건 지금뿐이라고, 조금 더 참으라고 나중에 하라고

Everybody say NO!

더는 나중이란 말로 안돼, 더는 남의 꿈에 갇혀 살지 마”


Best of Me

(Love Yourself: Her)

“It was raining, it was snowing, but all unhappiness stopped

You brought heaven to me; don’t speak so easily

Because without you, there’s no me, you’re the best of me”

“비가 내리던 나, 눈이 내리던 나, 모든 불행을 멈추고

천국을 데려와; 쉽게 말하지 마

너 없는 난 없어, 넌 내 best of me”


Cypher Pt. 3

(Dark & Wild)

“Who is talking smack about me?

Tell them to look at their own situation before doing that

I have nothing to be jealous of, tell them to look at me”

“누가 날 보고 욕하고 그래

니 상황이나 보고서 오라고 그래

난 남부러울 게 없어 다 보라고 그래”


Don’t Leave Me

(Face Yourself)

“Don’t leave me, I believe, I reach out to you, no ending, you are my hope

Even if I’m struck by rain, even if I’m erased by darkness

Feel it without closing your eyes: you are not alone”

“Don’t leave me, I believe 手を伸ばす, no ending 君は僕の希望

例えどんな雨に打たれても, 例えどんな闇に消されても

目を閉じずに感じて 君は独りじゃない”


Make It Right

(Map of the Soul: Persona)

“The reason I was able to survive hell wasn’t for myself but for you

If you know, don’t hesitate, please save my life

I was thirsty in the desert without you”

“지옥에서 내가 살아 남은 건 날 위했던 게 아닌 되려 너를 위한 거란 걸

안다면 주저 말고 please save my life

너 없이 헤쳐왔던 사막 위는 목말라”


Cypher Pt. 4

(Wings)

“I take on the road no matter what, sewing stitch by stitch

If you’re not able, put an end to it

There is no possibility of pronouncing ‘failure’”

“곱씹어도 가는 길 한 땀씩 바느질

못 할 거면 매듭지어

이젠 안 돼 가능이 포기라는 발음이”


So What

(Love Yourself: Tear)

“So what, don’t stop to worry, it’s pointless

Let go, though there isn’t an answer yet

You can start the fight”

“So what, 멈춰서 고민 하지마, 다 쓸데 없어

Let go, 아직은 답이 없지만

You can start the fight”


Answer: Love Myself

(Love Yourself: Answer)

“The me of yesterday, the me of today, the me of tomorrow

I’m learning how to love myself, with no exceptions, it’s all me

Maybe there’s no answer, maybe this isn’t the answer either

It’s just that loving myself doesn’t require anyone else’s permission”

“어제의 나 오늘의 나 내일의 나

I’m learning how to love myself, 빠짐없이 [브이/정국] 남김없이 모두 다 나

정답은 없을지도 몰라, 어쩜 이것도 답은 아닌 거야

그저 날 사랑하는 일조차 누구의 허락이 필요했던 거야”


Two! Three!

(Wings)

“(So thanks) for believing in me, for handling these tears and scars

(So thanks) for being my light, for being a flower in the most beautiful moment of life

It’s alright, now count 1, 2, 3 and forget; erase all sad memories, hold my hand and smile”

“(So thanks) 이런 날 믿어줘서, 이 눈물과 상처들을 감당해줘서

(So thanks) 나의 빛이 돼줘서, 화양연화의 그 꽃이 돼줘서

괜찮아 자 하나 둘 셋 하면 잊어; 슬픈 기억 모두 지워, 내 손을 잡고 웃어”


Hangul lyrics and translation from Color-Coded Lyrics


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November 05, 2019 /Alex Blahout
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There's A Galaxy On Your Face: VT x BTS Born Natural Peel Off Mask Review

November 01, 2019 by Alex Blahout

First impression: container

Aesthetically, the Born Natural peel off mask container is very simple. When it comes to cosmetics, I'm a sucker for cool or fancy packaging, because it appeals to the collector in me, and also looks nice on a shelf. I know that VT Cosmetics typically takes more of a minimalist approach to their designs, so I wasn’t exactly disappointed, it’s just not a visually stunning container. However…

First impression: mask

HOLY CRAP IT’S IS SO COOL. I’m pretty sure I squealed out loud the first time I opened the tub. This mask looks like a freaking galaxy — it’s so beautiful! The base is pure black but the sparkles stand out like there’s a light in the bottom of the container. Don’t let the scent throw you off: it is powerful at first, but it’s also really refreshing. It smells sort of like a combination of citronella and mint.

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First impression: application

This mask has an awesome, molasses-like consistency; I find many other modeling masks are too liquidy, and drip when I try to spread them. The VT Born Natural peel off mask, however, is so thick it can be a challenge to get it out of the tub. I recommend using a spatula (the beauty tool kind, not the scrambled eggs kind) because if you apply it with your fingers— like I did —you’ll deal with a sticky mess afterwards.

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Tip!

If you do use your fingers to apply, wipe off the bulk with a paper towel before washing your hands. The wet mask doesn’t come off well with water on its own, but if you need to wash it off, make sure to use hot water!

My experience

I’ve done this mask three times now, and one thing I can say for sure is that you might need to try a few times to get the right amount on your face. The layer needs to be opaque, but too thick and the mask won’t dry; in fact, it’ll be a pain to remove. Too thin and you won’t get the desired result, plus it will probably rip when peeled off.

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Tip!

It starts setting quickly, so do your best to apply in even strokes, and try not to go back over areas you’ve already covered. If you do, you’ll risk lifting the first layer, and you may end up with patches that aren’t dry at the end.


Every cosmetics brand will tell you to avoid putting the mask near your eyes, and the VT Born Natural peel off mask is no different. Because of the mint and citronella-like scent, your eyes may water if you go too close to your lower lids, and your sinuses may tingle when you put it under your nose. Don’t worry though; the sensation passes quickly.

Give yourself 20 minutes at minimum to let the mask dry— I time mine with a full episode of whatever sitcom I have playing in the background— because it needs to fully set to pull off your dead skin. 

If you’re worried about a bad reaction or red lines from the peeling, I have great news. My skin is crazy sensitive (seriously, I’ll get a rash from looking at my skin the wrong way) and unlike pharmacy-brand peeling masks, I experienced absolutely no skin irritation or redness during, or after, removal.

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My overall feeling

If it wasn’t obvious, I love this product. It goes on cool, it’s so refreshing; perfect for right after a hot shower. The VT Born Natural peel off mask lives up to its name by leaving your cheeks so very pillowy soft to the touch it’s like they’re brand new. It’s a great mask to use right before a full face of makeup or after a night out; just make sure to wash and exfoliate first!


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